I never set out to be an author. In 2020 during the lockdowns across America I began writing a blog of small stories that came to mind as I was walking and talking to God. Whether you believe in God or not I have to tell you that for me the biggest comfort in my life is my relationship with God. I had so much time to spend during the lockdowns that it actually helped to develop my faith and draw me closer to who God is by reading His word, praying and blogging my thoughts. 

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This book comes from similar beginnings. I have always felt that my life was meant for bigger things than just going to work and surviving day to day. Over the course of the last few years I have become more and more prayerful about God showing me what purpose He designed for me to fulfill. I've learned patience along the way as I  continued to develop my graphic design skills and explored different avenues to express those skills. I always thought that my purpose would be a creative one using my art. It was my happy place and where I felt most at peace with myself.

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In the fall of 2023 I was walking and talking to God, as is my usual routine, when I was given two words Light and Water. When words pop into my head I know it is God's way of making me consider them biblically. So I did. As I was considering these two biblical topics a blog started to develop. I was thinking about writing my next blog and continued to walk and ponder the topics in my head and the story exploded into something much larger than a simple 5 minute read.

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I didn't go inside and start writing. Rather I avoided thinking about how big this was going to be. The book itself isn't large, but to even imagine that I could write a book of any kind was daunting. Every time I took a walk the thoughts consumed me and the story developed. I knew I had to write it even if it never was published. My thoughts were not going to let me get any rest until I had put them down on paper.

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In two days I had written ten chapters. It just spilled out onto the pages. I was amazed at how easy it was to write. It was all right there in my head. Then the greed hit me. The selfishness and what I wanted this to be for me came flooding into my mind just as the book had. When I would take my walks, thoughts of fame and money took the place of the book and the purpose of that book. Because of this the words dried up and frankly so did my spiritual walks with God. They weren't like they had been. I had made it about me. 

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For two months I struggled. I wanted to finish it. I tried different avenues of thought but nothing came to me. The water and the light were turned off and I was in a dark place thirsting for a way forward. It was Christmas Day when the water and light were turned back on. I was walking and talking to God and I heard very clearly, "this is MY book, not yours. It will serve MY purpose, not yours."

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Needless to say I began crying. I apologized and humbled myself knowing that He was about to show me just how amazing He truly is and how I can trust His timing and His wisdom above my own. As I walked, cried and prayed the words of the book burst forth like a light in my head. When I returned to my apartment the next ten chapters poured out of me like water. Two more days of writing and it was completed. ​

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I do not know where this will go, but if just one person comes to know God as I know Him then it will be a success!